Chapter 1 — Emperor's Regret

"What else is there to cut off cause and effect? I give this life back to you." After saying that sentence, right in front of my parents and husband, Emperor Ton, I took the knife and cut my throat. As blood shot down at their feet, Ta Hanh finally went crazy. But who would have thought that the people forcing us to step into the dead end would be them. My sister-in-law killed six of my children. My parents time and time again knelt down to protect her, scolded me for not understanding, and even said that if they had known this day would exist, in the past they should have strangled me first. And my husband, who always said he loved me, not only tolerated her killing his children, but also took the remains of the dead children to practice medicine. They all thought that I couldn't bear to die. Only I know, I didn't want to live anymore for a long time. After all, an Immortal Queen can't even protect her own children, and her parents and husband can't be relied on. What's the point of continuing to live? 1 This is the sixth time I've lost my child. This time, not long after the baby was born, she died in Tham Man's hands, still suffocated by her own hand. Outside the palace gate, the parents knelt for a long time. The two of them held the white silk ribbon high above their heads, their faces resolute, clearly trying to force me to give in with their lives. "Man Nhi is a person who changes the fate of heaven. Everything she does is according to the destiny of heaven. If the Immortal Queen insists on pursuing it, then step through my body and her father's body first!" Everyone in the main hall is looking at me. They all thought that I would be like the previous times, crying and rioting, determined to make Tham Man pay for my life. Even Ta Hanh, who rushed over, had red eyes and half knelt next to my bed, softly comforting me. "Nhuoc Nhi, if Man Nhi wants to overcome this tribulation, she must give birth to the first son of heaven. The first son of this deity can only be born from her. Don't compare yourself with her anymore, be a little more generous." "Waiting for her to recover her body, we will still have children in the future." I didn't cry, I didn't make a mess, I just nodded slowly. “This queen listens to the Emperor.” That night, rewards were continuously brought into the Immortal Queen's Palace. Chest after chest was carried in, as if they wanted to pile everything they owed us onto these dead objects. Ta Hanh treated me more considerately than before, asking about almost everything personally. I leaned against the window, looking at the snow covering the sky and earth outside the palace, slowly closing my eyes. But in our hearts we understand better than anyone. This time still failed. We originally did not belong to this world. During the years of accidentally getting lost in the fairy world, I always knew that only when I safely gave birth to Ta Hanh's destined eldest son could I truly leave this place and return to my original world. This is now the fifth failure. I can even feel the last bit of connection between me and this world is about to be completely broken. …… The familiar feeling of rejection welled up from deep within my soul. That feeling was like ice water seeping into the bones, the coldness spreading little by little. At this moment, I heard Ta Hanh coming, the footsteps stopped behind me. Right after that, he hugged me from behind, his arms wrapped around my waist. A low voice passed through my ears. "Nhuoc Nhi, the child is about to be buried. Do you want to come and see the child one last time?" As soon as I heard the word "child", my already numb heart suddenly ached. Ta Hanh noticed my body stiffen, a guilty look flashed in my eyes, and the strength in hugging me also lightened a bit. "This child is not destined for us. As long as she recovers her body, we will still have children in the future." The corner of my lips moved slightly, pulling out a cold smile that was almost invisible. He still doesn't know. He and I are no longer there anymore. Heaven will only give me five chances. As long as one of them gives birth to a child safely, I can leave the fairy world. But starting five years ago, that all changed. That day, Tham Man cried and confessed to Ta Hanh that she was the one chosen by heaven.

I am determined to give birth to Ta Hanh's eldest son so that I can safely overcome this tribulation. Since then, every child I have ever conceived has ultimately died in her hands. Thinking of this, I tried to suppress the feeling of nausea constantly rolling in my chest, turning my face to avoid Ta Hanh's kiss that was about to fall. "No need." "The child's matter, the Emperor can handle it himself." The breath behind him suddenly stopped. Ta Hanh was clearly stunned, then tightened his arms around my waist, laughing softly as if tolerant of my anger. "Nhuoc Nhi, I know you're heartbroken, but don't say such things to get angry at me." “That is our child, how can you say it is handled?” His tone was still as gentle as before, as if he loved me to the core. But what comes to my ears is only ridiculousness. The first time I gave birth to a fairy, I endured two days and two nights. After giving birth, I was so weak that I had difficulty raising my arms, but at that moment Tham Man rushed into the Immortal Hau Palace. She stood in front of me, right before my eyes, fiercely throwing the newly born child to the ground. The child immediately stopped breathing. I went crazy, crying and screaming, determined to make her pay for her life. But Ta Hanh protected her tightly from behind, not allowing me to touch her even a little bit. At that time, I didn't care about the torn wound, tried to roll down from the bed, hugged the child who was no longer breathing, cried until my voice was hoarse and asked him every word. “Your Majesty, this evil woman killed our child, is there not even a little punishment?!” But Ta Hanh just hugged Tham Man in his arms and sighed softly. "Nhuoc Nhi, Man Nhi did this to fulfill a destiny. The first child of this deity can only be born from her." “Don't worry, I will give you an explanation.” It wasn't until the next day that I found out what his explanation was. It's just that he forced Tham Man to close the door and think for a few days. After that, I lost four more children in succession. Tham Man always takes action in the name of responding to disaster. Some children, not even born yet, died in the womb. She threw a newborn baby to death right on the spot. There have been many children who have died like that, but Ta Hanh's punishment was still as light as a breeze, blowing away and disappearing. He even said something to me with some regret. “Nhuoc Nhi, it would be great if this child of yours were a girl.” Until now, those words are still in his mouth. "When Man Nhi successfully gives birth to the child, I will force her to seriously think about it as atonement for our child." The sarcasm in my heart is almost impossible to suppress. Just when I was still lost, the door was suddenly pushed open. Father and mother rushed in in panic, their voices extremely urgent. "Di Ton, something happened! The nightmare in Man Nhi's soul has recurred!" Ta Hanh's face immediately changed. He almost didn't hesitate, he stood up and grabbed me, wanting to take me with him. Since the alchemist affirmed that only the pure yin woman's head and heart blood essence could suppress nightmares, and in this vast fairy palace, I was the only one with the destiny of pure yin - Every time Tham Man had a nightmare, I had to personally go there to take the blood as medicine. But this time was different. We ourselves are about to be pushed out by this world, why do we still have the mind to care about the lives and deaths of others? I immediately pushed Ta Hanh's hand away. When I looked up at him, there was only emptiness and fatigue in my eyes. “Di Zun, I won't go.” I just finished speaking. Mother's face immediately changed, she raised her hand and pointed straight at me, her eyes filled with surprise. "Tham Nhuoc, what do you mean by this? What do you mean you won't go?" "Don't forget, Man Nhi is the true bloodline of the Tham Thi Immortal Sect. You have lived in her identity for so many years, and you already owe her. Now she is still carrying the Immortal fetus in her womb. If you don't go, do you want to force her to die?!" Since Tham Man was welcomed to the Tham family, he was confirmed to be the person chosen by heaven. I've lost count of the times I've experienced coercion like this

o many times. She said her identity had been switched, and she was still uneasy. My father and mother immediately downgraded me from the main line to a daughter who was adopted by a side branch, raising her to be the only legitimate member of the Tham clan. After that, she said that the person whose fate was tied to hers was my husband. At that time, I married Ta Hanh and became the Immortal Queen of the fairy palace. But they still ignored my wishes and stubbornly took Tham Man to the fairy palace. Even when she killed my five children time and time again, they just continued to use their lives to pressure me, forcing me to stop pursuing them. I looked at my mother's angry face, my eye sockets heated up, my throat choked up. I opened my mouth, with great difficulty getting out a sentence. "If the person who has to die is not the only one..." But before I finished speaking, my father's face darkened and he interrupted me. "That's enough! Nhuoc Nhi, don't make trouble anymore. If you delay another moment, Man Nhi will be in even more danger!" Ta Hanh also held my hand at this time, his expression solemn as if he was truly comforting me. "Nhuoc Nhi, please trust this deity one more time. This is the last time. As long as Man Nhi safely gets through this hurdle, in the future I will absolutely not force you to do the things you don't want to do." He spoke very seriously. It sounds like he's coaxing me, like he's making a promise. But we understand very clearly. Not anymore after that. The last bit of connection between us and this world is about to be broken. As soon as he finished speaking, he took me directly to the Imperial Palace, not giving me a chance to refuse. Just entered the electric door. A dark shadow rushed forward. Tham Man's mind was in chaos, his whole body straddled him, desperately grabbing my hair, scratching and hitting him. Not long after I was born, the wound immediately cracked, causing so much pain that my face turned white and my whole body trembled. But Ta Hanh seemed completely invisible. On the contrary, his expression changed and he commanded sternly. "Where are you? Hold the Fairy Queen tightly, don't let her move around, avoid injuring Man Nhi and the child in her womb!" Very quickly, someone rushed in and pinned me to the ground. My face was scratched with blood. His whole body was in intense pain, and his heart felt like it was being torn apart little by little. After Tham Man had caused enough chaos, she suddenly cried and threw herself into Ta Hanh's arms, her voice trembling. "Your Majesty, I dreamed again that those children came to me to ask for my life... I am very afraid, really very afraid..." Ta Hanh hugged her, the pain in his eyes was almost impossible to hide. At this moment, an alchemist stepped forward, his face heavy. “Di Venerable, I see that the Imperial Concubine's condition is not like a normal nightmare, but seems like she has been infected with evil spirits.” “I remember there is an ancient remedy that can be used to neutralize it, it's just…” Having said this, he stopped, his eyes slowly falling on him. "It is necessary to take the thing that the lady fears most in her dreams and make it into a medicinal pill for the person to drink to be able to completely cure it."