Chapter 1 — Give up on someone who doesn't love you

Line up to take the cable car up the mountain, there are only two seats left. Hua Canh Hoai politely negotiated with the tourist: "Sorry, the person next to you is my friend." "She has been afraid of heights since childhood. Today, for good luck for her graduate school exam, this is her first time riding the cable car." "I wonder if it's convenient for you to change places with me? I want to sit next to her and take care of her." The tourist saw Van So Ha's slightly red face and smiled generously. "Okay, when you were young, you also pursued your wife like that. hey.” His eyes slid to me behind him again. “Is she with you guys too?” Hua Canh Hoai sat on the cable car, seemingly remembering me, his official girlfriend. He glanced lightly at me standing outside the door. "Unfamiliar." I stood in place, watching the small car compartment run toward the top of the mountain. For the past seven years, I have always followed behind you and Van So Ha. Chasing their silhouettes, they laughed and rioted. Chasing the same high-speed train. Chasing after art films that I have no interest in. This time, the road ahead was dark, I suddenly no longer had the courage to chase. I turned around. Perhaps the way down the mountain will be more convenient. 1The staff pulled up the red rope, the loudspeaker announced that this was the last cable car trip. Hua Canh Hoai knew that, so he quickly changed places with Van So Ha. I stood lost in the hall, looking at the chat group of three people sending photos, but in the photo there were only two people. "We safely reached the top of the mountain, Vi Vi, you should come quickly too~" "There are people who are determined to go in a long line to buy hexagrams, there's no way to stop them." "A man who is nearly thirty years old still believes in these things, not mature at all, I don't need this type of husband." In the photo, Hua Canh Hoai stands at the end of the line, completely out of touch with the surroundings. around. Before leaving, I once sent to the group that the peach blossom hexagram and the karma hexagram here were very spiritual, wanting to pray for a good omen. At that time, I begged him for a long time, but Hua Canh Hoai only coldly replied: "Tasteless." Now he is willing to take the initiative to line up. Not long after, Van So Ha sent a video. "It's done, Vi Vi, this is yours~" The blue hexagram wrote career advancement. In the corner of the video, the hexagram in Van So Ha's hand flashed by very quickly. But I still see clearly, it's the peach blossom hexagram I want the most. I can't clearly express the feeling in my heart. One side is a boyfriend of four years, the other side is a close friend of eight years. But it seems like no one really listens to me seriously. I turned off the screen, found a corner in the hall and sat down, waiting for them to come down the mountain. Three hours passed when my phone vibrated in my pocket, waking me up. The voice of a local driver shouted. "What are you doing? You guys say eleven o'clock on time, now look at what time it is?" "Do you know that I drive by trip, not for a full day?" "Tomorrow I have another order, can you make up for it if I miss it?" Each reproachful sentence made my mind foggy. I looked at the time, unexpectedly it was twelve o'clock. I repeatedly apologized to the driver and hurriedly called Van So Ha, but there was no one on the other end. I called Hua Canh Hoai a few more times, and only on the ninth call did the other side pick up. "Where are you guys? Are you still on the top of the mountain? Is there anything wrong?" A light laugh rang out on the other end. "The bet's won, quickly obediently give me the prize~" Hua Canh Hoai said helplessly: "Ha Ha bet on hiding to see if you'll find us." "We're behind the sunrise watch platform, come over here." go.” What dawn? Hide and seek what? I asked in bewilderment: "Didn't we say we wouldn't watch the sunrise? Tomorrow you still have to take the high-speed train, I still have to go to work..." "Ly Vi." Hua Canh Hoai interrupted me with a cold voice. “People rarely go out to play

one trip, can you not be so dissatisfied?" My throat felt like it was blocked by a stone. I tried to suppress the trembling in my voice, pressing hard on my thighs, trying to make myself look calm. "Hua Canh Hoai, you can't get on the last cable car." He said: "Then you should think of a way to go." The background noise on the other side was noisy, the happy laughter did not belong to me. If it was before, I would have been angry, would have made a big fuss. This time I looked. The tourist hall was empty, and my heart felt like it was hollowed out. What else could I think? I'm not as smart as Van So Ha, I'm not as eager to win as she is. If I didn't pass the exam, I'd rather hide from my family and persist in taking the exam. My days of returning to the district as a teacher were also very peaceful and happy. The only person I was stubborn to the end was Hua Canh Hoai who supported me over and over again His back. But every time I chased Hua Canh Hoai further away from me. The road to his heart was inherently a dead end. I closed my eyes and heard my voice very softly. "Hua Canh Hoai, let's break up." The sound of fireworks drowned out my words. No one spoke on the other side for a long time, then I realized that Hua Canh Hoai had hung up the phone a long time ago bright red exclamation point. I staggered to my feet, walked towards the transfer car, and suddenly fell down hard. When he saw me with messy hair, blood on my knees, and the cigarette in my mouth, he stopped complaining and decisively stepped on the gas. That girl now..." The smoke and fire of the town's daily life gradually appeared before my eyes. The light shone on my face, and I was able to find my breath again. It turned out that the mountain that I used all my strength to climb and descend was so easy. From small to large, their footsteps were the things I had to chase. Van So Ha was brilliant and bright, Hua Canh Hoai was clean and outstanding. Wherever they went, they were the focus of the crowd, the teacher's darling. When I was still in school, he and Van So Ha skipped class to go out and stood on the other side of the wall laughing at me for being cowardly. When the dean heard me coming, I was made an example and criticized at the school's flag-raising ceremony, so I signed up for a less popular major at S University, just to catch the high-speed train so I could go to school with Hua Canh Hoai. But he turned around and had a new hobby with Van So Ha in college creating, BMX, watching art movies. I stayed up late hiding under the blanket to watch all the analysis, just so I could interrupt their conversation the next day. But after I finished speaking, Van So Ha smiled and blinked: "AI is really convenient, our Vi Vi has also caught up with the times." Hua Canh Hoai smiled, a look of relief on her face when the awkwardness was resolved. Because of my existence, the relationship between the three of them became awkward. I went back to my room, couldn't sleep, and started packing up my belongings until morning. I picked up my phone and discovered that Van So Ha had posted a new status. "It's so cold tonight. Luckily, someone was awake." The sunrise on the mountain top covered the dim silhouettes of people. The last selfie on the bus, showing half of her shoulder, was Hua Canh Hoai's. I clicked like and picked up the photo from the tenth grade graduation photo Second, I was short so I stood in the front row. The two of them were teased and pushed forward by the crowd. When I was embarrassed and wanted to step back, Van So Ha gently held my shoulders and hugged my neck. "Let's take a photo together, we're good friends." Hua Canh Hoai coldly said "yes".

That summer of graduation, Hua Canh Hoai kissed me. I thought it was a secret love that came true for many years, but later I found out he was arguing with Van So Ha. Once angry, I, an outsider, suddenly intervened in their two-person world. Even this chat group was created by the thick-skinned me who robbed Hua Canh Hoai's phone when he was drunk. But every time I share funny videos and conversation topics, no one responds. Van So Ha occasionally sends a weather photo, which can also receive the emotional value I try to provide and Hua Canh Hoai's commentary. But obviously he is my boyfriend. I wiped my dry eye sockets. Throw the photo taken together in the trash bag, then leave the chat group. Just as she was about to go out, the sound of two people's footsteps rang out in the hallway. "Vi Vi is arbitrary, but she's not a bad person. If you don't apologize to her, I won't pay attention to you anymore." Hua Canh Hoai sighed softly. "In the past, she was really good at hiding it." "I knew early on that she had such a bad personality, and at first I wouldn't have known her." The door opened, four eyes looked at each other. Van So Ha tried to signal with her eyes. Hua Canh Hoai stubbornly walked over and put black bean milk and donuts on the table. "Black bean milk I like." Then, he took out a pink hexagram from his pocket. "Buy it for me, don't make a mess." I chose the unopened green sheet and took out my phone. "Thank you. How much? I'll transfer it to you." The atmosphere in the living room immediately froze. Hua Canh Hoai was a little stunned, her beautiful eyebrows frowned. "Who's making you angry again?" Van So Ha saw that the situation wasn't right, hugged my arm and gently shook it. "There's some rotten straight guy who really doesn't know how to look at his face!" "Here, take this, swipe it hard, annoy him to death." In my palm was stuffed a bank card. Van So Ha blinked at me, her tone reproachful. "Someone last night bought eight hundred and eighty-eight of the upper hexagram, which was still not enough. He still wanted to buy more, but was stopped by my wise and martial servant." "He's just being loud, he doesn't know how to make his daughter happy, it's not worth being angry with him." "You can take this card and use it as you like, just swipe it until you're satisfied." Hua Canh Hoai crossed his arms in disapproval, but didn't stop Van So. Ha. The cold card stung my palm until it hurt. I put the card on the table, picked up the trash bag from the door. "I'm not angry." "I have to go to work, please get out of the way." Arriving at school, the teachers greeted each other. There was a young teacher who bought extra breakfast and enthusiastically asked me: "Miss Ly, drink a glass of black bean milk, it's beautiful for your skin." The teacher grading papers next to him smiled and said: "People are allergic to black beans, drink it yourself." I smiled gently. Colleagues I've worked with for less than a year still know I'm allergic, but Hua Canh Hoai will never remember. An excellent student with a reserved graduate student status at S University, his memory is extraordinary, he just doesn't want to remember. After teaching two morning classes, I received a WeChat message. It's Hua Canh Hoai's. "The high-speed train tickets have been changed, let's have lunch this afternoon." "I'll pick you up at school?" I didn't answer, but when I walked out of the school gate, I saw a car parked on the side of the road. The car window slowly rolled down, revealing Hua Canh Hoai's cold face. He nodded toward the passenger seat. “Get in the car.” Ten minutes later. The man who clearly regretted knowing me this morning, now acted as if nothing had ever happened. He skillfully circled the dishes on the menu. "Let's order these first, see if there's anything else you want?"