Chapter 2 — Give up the wedding car, cancel the marriage

"She's in poor health and sensitive, can't we give in to her a little?"
“To Tinh, I thought you were a generous and honest girl.”
I was morally kidnapped by those words for too long. It's been so long that I've even begun to doubt whether I'm being too petty or too calculating. Until we were thinking about getting married. I think marriage will be a new beginning. Will let him understand who will accompany him until the end of his life. But I was wrong. We went to see the bride's house. I like a south-facing apartment with a large balcony. Chu T. Tu Ngang also feels fine. As a result, Lam So So ran over to take a look and said:
"This area is too old, not worthy of Mr. T. Tu Ngang. Moreover, it is far from where I live, so if I want to come visit later, it won't be convenient."
Chu T. Tu Ngang hesitated. Finally, we bought a house in the area where Lam So So lives. An apartment facing North. All year round there is no sunlight. The red book is in both of our names. My family paid most of the down payment. While renovating the house, Lam So So came again. She used the name "designer" to point out all my ideas. The Nordic minimalist style I liked was changed into a cheesy pink princess style.
"To Tinh, a girl of your age, why do you like cold colors like that? At home, you have to be a little warmer. Mr. Tu Ngang is tired from work, only when he comes home can he relax."
Chu T. Tu Ngang stood next to him and nodded: "So So is right, she still understands me." Looking at the bright pink wall, I just felt nauseous. The most ridiculous thing is the wedding dress thing. We went to choose wedding photography gear, Lam So So also went along. She was as excited as if she were a bride, trying on one outfit after another. In the end, she settled on a mermaid dress. Wearing her, she is truly beautiful. She coyly pulled Chu T. Tu Ngang's hand: "Mr. T. Tu Ngang, this outfit is so beautiful, it's a pity I'm not the bride." Chu T. Tu Ngang looked at her with a look of fascination that I had never seen before. Then he turned to me and said:
"Tinh Tinh, or... should I choose this as my main wedding dress? It seems to fulfill So So's wish."
At that moment I just wanted to throw the catalog right in his face. But I refrained. I just calmly replied:
“My wedding dress, I chose it myself.”
After that, I hid them and ordered the Vera Wang myself. Lost thirty thousand yuan. With my own money. I thought, when I wore my own dress and walked towards him at the wedding, he would understand my determination. Will understand that from now on, our lives should not have a third person. Now that I think about it, I was so naive. If a man needs you to use that method to remind him of your importance, it means he doesn't have you in his heart. Scissors are very sharp. The expensive fabric crumbled into pieces in my hands. I gathered them and threw them in the trash. It was like throwing away twelve years of my ridiculous youth. After finishing everything, I walked into the bathroom. Open the shower. Hot water poured over my body. I looked at myself in the mirror. The makeup was smudged, looking like a clown. I forcefully wiped off the foundation and lipstick, revealing my bare skin. Very clean, and also full of power. Stepping out of the bathroom, I changed into the pajamas I had prepared. Turn on the computer. On the desktop there is a folder called “Plan B”. I clicked. Beside Inside are all kinds of documents: House purchase contract, bank statement, notarized property... And a detailed list. Record all the expenses my family has spent since deciding to get married: bride price, hotel, restaurant, wedding photos, parties... Every penny is clear. I export the list into a PDF file. Packed with a scanned copy of the red book of the newlywed house we bought together. After that, I turned on the phone that had been turned off for a long time.