Chapter 4 — Mother wants me to share my husband with you, so I won't marry anymore

Even on my birthday, the kitchen made me a bowl of longevity noodles. Mother also had to call the mother next door to remind me, telling me to give half to Tong Dao. I sat in front of the table, watching two identical bowls of noodles being brought up, one bowl placed in front of me, one bowl placed in front of Tong Dao. Tong Dao smiled at me, bowed his head and took a bite, saying it was delicious. I suddenly didn't want to eat anymore. Mother knew that we two sisters each had a bowl of noodles, so she smiled extremely happily, as if she had finally seen something that made her feel completely at ease. At that time, I really wanted to ask her, today is my birthday, not her birthday. Why does even a bowl of longevity noodles have to be given to her in half? But I don't ask, because there is no answer, which is actually the answer. I'm already used to it. Later when I got pregnant, my grandmother was so happy that she couldn't describe it. She used her own dowry to make a special lock made of pure red gold. The old woman quietly put that lock into my hand, saying that this was a unique part, reserved only for the child in my womb, and told me to keep it carefully, not to reveal it. My grandmother loved me, it wasn't until later that she realized how many wrongs I had to endure in this house. But we still can't hide it. When Tong Dao came to my hospital to hang out, she saw that safe lock, immediately held it in her hand, turned it over and looked at it for a long time, but from beginning to end she said nothing, just put it down and left. The next day she returned to her mother's house, closed the door and cried. That very day, my mother ordered someone to prepare a carriage and drive to the General's palace. As soon as I entered the door, she scolded me in front of me.

"It's just a security lock. What's wrong with you and Dao Nhi each having one? And yet you still persuaded your great-grandmother to give you a unique part!"

"You are a sister, you always want to be one level stronger than your sister in everything. Is this the upbringing I taught you?"

“How many times have I told you, either you two sisters both have it, or you both don't need it!”

Right in front of the whole yard, she took the peace lock from my hand. I knelt on the ground, raised my head and watched her raise the lock high, then aggressively threw it to the ground. Although pure gold was hard, it could not withstand such destruction. The lock's body immediately deformed, and the two words "peace" engraved on it became crooked, as if someone had broken its neck. She also forced me to apologize to Tong Dao. I knelt there, looking at the security lock that had been thrown and deformed on the ground, determined not to open my mouth. Mother waited impatiently: "No apologies, today's matter won't be finished." I closed my eyes and softly said: "It's my fault." Mother was only then satisfied, pulling Tong Dao out, saying she wanted to take her to the biggest jewelry store in the city to get a better lock, as compensation for her. Mother and daughter walked out the door arm in arm, from beginning to end, not a single person turned their head to look at me even once. I was still kneeling on the ground, my lower abdomen had a dull pain, the panicked servants rushed forward to help me up, and that very night I saw blood. The doctor said pregnancy The situation is not good, tell me to rest well and absolutely not be agitated anymore. On the day of giving birth, the palace had clearly prepared two midwives and a physician for each side, but the people on our side were sent all the way to Tong Dao's hospital by our mother. She said Dao Nhi's body was weak, she was afraid that she would go into labor first, afraid that something would go wrong, so having a few more people by her side to guard her would help her feel secure. As a result, our side had difficulty giving birth first. I was in pain for a whole day and a night, screaming until my throat was hoarse. Next to me, there was only a half-understanding maid staying to watch over me. Sending someone to invite the midwife, the person who returned only said: "Lady Dao is also in labor, the Royal Doctor and the midwife cannot leave." I lay on the bed, in so much pain that my whole body trembled non-stop, sweat drenching the mattress. I wanted to call my mother, but my mother was not there. She was in the hospital next door, guarding another girl.