Chapter 2 — Thousand Tribulations Without Return

Before I could open my mouth, he bent down and hugged me, extremely gentle, his voice as soft as a breeze: "But it's okay... With me to protect you, if Lac Quan is willing to be a child forever, then... just be a child for the rest of your life." I slightly lowered my eyes, slowly tilted my head, avoiding those eyes filled with warmth and enthusiasm. I'm afraid... afraid that if I just look at him one more time, I won't be able to help but blurt out a question, asking him which one is true and which one is false. But I know, even if we expose everything, what we get in return... are just more radical lies. Canh Hac... That's it. Deep love is good, so is cheating. From now on, we don't need it anymore. On the night of the birthday ceremony, Canh Hac personally helped me comb my hair and tie it in a bun. If an outsider saw this scene, they certainly wouldn't believe it - the majestic Emperor, whose hands were only used to holding swords and knives, could now skillfully tie his hair into such an exquisite bun. I looked at my reflection in the mirror, wearing a dragon robe embroidered with golden patterns, but my face was languid, pale as ashes. Canh Hac saw that, bent down and gently kissed my sideburns, his voice was gentle and gentle: "Lac Quan, don't worry. The Divine Lien Tu Thai is being trained, as long as you take all the medicine, from now on no one in the three worlds will dare to laugh at you anymore." In the fairy world, it is inherently difficult for immortals to conceive, but like me and Canh Hac, there has been no movement for thousands of years - this has never happened before. Even though I hold the title of Emperor, the sarcasm and sarcasm behind my back never stops. Some fairies even learned from mortal proverbs and secretly called me "a mother millet that cannot bear eggs". Canh Hac knew, but he never paid attention. On the contrary, because of me, he punished many immortals who dared to talk behind my back. He even issued an order - from now on, Tu Hai Bat Hoang prohibits holding a party to celebrate the birth of the fairy, just because... he is afraid that I will be heartbroken when he sees it. He knew that I longed to give birth to a child for him, so elixirs and elixirs were like flowing water, continuously brought to my palace. This time he even went against the grain, let the gods of the fairy world stop him, stubbornly entered the Nine Heavens Divine Source, just to ask for a Divine Lotus Flower for me. I used to think that he was the husband who loved and protected me the most, but who would have thought... he was the one who didn't want me to get pregnant more than anyone else. I was like a wooden puppet, letting Canh Hac meticulously do my makeup, then led me by the hand to the banquet. The immortal kings saw me wearing a golden robe embroidered with Thien Moc spirit silk, everyone admired and admired me, envious of my unparalleled favor from the Emperor, and saw with their own eyes that he personally held me up like a precious treasure. When the peach tree was brought up, Canh Hac personally brought a cup of elixir, the thin smoke emitted a fragrant aroma, his eyes were as gentle as water, his voice was soft as if swearing: "Lac Quan, drink. This is the Divine Lotus Conception that you have been waiting for so long. Just drink it, the child you have been waiting for will soon come to us." The sweet scent drifted away, but my tears fell into the medicinal bowl. Canh Hac was startled and quickly hugged me, squeezing me so tightly that I trembled: "Lac Quan! Who made you sad? Tell me, I will immediately kill that person!" I wiped away the tears, trying to smile wryly: "No... no one. I'm just... too happy." Canh Hac raised his hand rubbed the top of my head, his voice carrying a bit of pampering: "You're so stupid... You're about to become a mother, why are you still so childish? If the little fairy learns in the future, he will laugh at that mother." I looked at him for a long time, trembling in my eyes, and softly asked: "Canh Hac, tell me... Can I... really... still be a mother?" His breath stopped. In just a blink of an eye, his eyes avoided me, trying to force a smile, his voice was low: "I'm having random thoughts again. Take your medicine...be good." Seeing that I still hadn't made a move, a trace of impatience flashed between his eyebrows, but the corners of his lips still curled up, his voice as gentle as a spring breeze: "What's wrong? Do you want to let... your husband personally feed you?" I shook my head slightly, pursed my lips, and asked again: "Canh Hac... Why... is this Divine Lotus Concentration... red? I heard the fairies say... Divine Lotus was originally supposed to be a golden lotus..." For a moment, I saw a flash of panic flash across Canh Hac's eyes, but he immediately regained his composure, his voice as gentle as flowing water: "It must have been... stewed too long, so the medicine changed color." Then he smiled slightly, gently urging: "Drink quickly, Lac Quan. Haven't you been waiting for this child for a long time?" I curled the corners of my lips, giving a faint smile. With trembling fingers, he lifted the cup of medicine, each drop of tears mixed with the medicine, then drank it all in one breath. The bitter medicine poured down my throat, each stream of hot elixir burned like fire into my bone marrow. At that moment, a burning pain came from the lower body, like a smoldering fire burning from the inside. I gently wiped the medicine from the corner of my lips, slowly raised my head, looked straight into his eyes, each word falling as heavy as a stone: "Canh Hac... My birthday wish this year... is for... you to have many children and grandchildren." He laughed, wrapped his arms around me, and softly corrected me: "So stupid... it should be us." Under my sleeve, my nails quietly dug into my palms, fresh blood soaked my skin... but I didn't feel any pain. "There will be no more, Canh Hac..." I gently closed my eyelids, my lips trembled, whispering in my heart: "From now on... between you and me... there will be no future." Early the next morning, Canh Hac ordered someone to open the warehouse and search for the things I had prepared for the child. Every little toy, every little piece of clothing, every magical weapon to protect my body that I have carefully crafted over the years, yet covers the entire main hall. Thousands of years have passed... I suddenly discovered that I had accumulated so much. Canh Hac is like a child, attentively choosing each dish, his bright eyes seem to contain a sky of expectation. Even the palace servants couldn't help but cover their mouths and smile teasingly: "The Emperor hasn't even diagnosed her pregnancy yet, and the Emperor is already so impatient." Canh Hac laughed so happily that the corners of his eyes curled up, the corners of his lips felt like a spring breeze, his voice was gentle: "I wish... tomorrow I could hold the child in my arms." As he spoke, he turned his head, his eyes bright, teasing and pampering, looking at me and smiling: "But first... I have to comfort the child's mother." Last night, I didn't let him enter the temple. Over the years, whenever I was angry with him, I would be stubborn and coy, leaving him to comfort me. Canh Hac still thinks, maybe he didn't know where he accidentally said something, that's why he made me upset. It's just... he doesn't know. It's not that I'm angry... it's that my heart is dead. Canh Hac meticulously analyzed Sort out, pick out a bunch of pregnancy items, and have someone put them all in jade boxes. But when the palace had just lifted the jade boxes to leave, he walked up to me, hugged my waist tightly, smiled gently, his voice was as soft as feathers: "Lac Quan... these things are not good enough. Wait for me... I will bring you the best things in the world." Those items... are all the Mother Goddesses of the past, each one of which I painstakingly searched for. Among them, there is also a lot of the wedding ceremony that Canh Hac gave me that year - everything is incomparably precious, everything... contains the wish of fidelity. How can you say it's not good? However, when I saw the palaces lifting each chest and leaving the main hall, my eyes involuntarily followed it, then froze. Because I realized that the leader was the fairy mandarin who served Mong Ly by my side that day. Here, I understand. All of these things... were transferred to her. I looked at Canh Hac's face, thinking that my already numb heart would no longer feel anything, but unexpectedly, the pain was still like a sharp sword, tearing every fiber of my soul. Canh Hac, if you tell me frankly, I will not regret these things - even if I give them all to her, I will not complain a word. But why... why do you have to use sweet, sweet words and lies, little by little... to deceive my heart?