Chapter 1 — You don't save me, I don't need it

My niece is sick, the district hospital is really not qualified for surgery. I had to bravely go with my sister to find my boyfriend, a pediatric neurosurgeon specialist, and ask him to help arrange a hospital bed. But after listening, my boyfriend slightly frowned and refused: "I arranged the bed for you, so what about the other patients?" "Ha Ninh, the hospital is a public resource, not opened to serve your family." He said extremely harsh words, making my sister and I, who were awkwardly holding our niece's hand in the middle of the living room, burst into tears. But because I know he always values rules, I don't argue. I plan to go to the hospital this afternoon to find him and talk to him privately. However, when I went to his office. I saw him again holding his first love's daughter, his eyes gently looking at her. Not only did she instruct the nurse to arrange the best hospital bed for her daughter. And even to ensure that the baby's surgery took place in the morning, he continuously changed the surgery schedules of three other patients. At that moment, I suddenly decided, I didn't need this man anymore.—1 That evening when Luc Hoai Chau came home, I was squatting on the floor packing my luggage. He looked at my actions, indifferently said: "Are you still making yourself angry because I didn't help you?" "You also have to understand me, my niece's illness is serious, but not to the point of losing her life. Now in the ward I manage, there is no child whose illness is not worse than your niece." Luc Hoai Chau and I have been together for two years, just because he is 8 years older than me, so whenever he makes me angry, he will drag me out. out a bunch of morals, forcing me to "understand" him. But this time I can't understand it. So I turned around and went into the room, pulled out my underwear and stuffed it all into the suitcase. He frowned slightly, stepped forward and hugged me. "If you mess up again, I won't be able to handle this matter, rules are rules." Hearing him bring up "rules" again, I angrily broke free and stood up. "I know, so I plan to move to live near the hospital, trying to get the examination number of the great doctor Luc as soon as possible." I gritted my teeth and said, but Luc Hoai Chau pulled me into his arms again. "Ngoan, Don't be upset with me anymore, I'm tired from working all day today." Before, I liked Luc Hoai Chau's somewhat imposing hug the most. I always felt like I was exclusively favored by him. But now I suddenly realize that this hug is not to pamper, but to solve problems. Sure enough, he only hugged me for about ten seconds and then let go. He took off his vest and threw it straight at me. "Tomorrow I have an important surgery, tonight I'll take this vest to the dry cleaner for you right away." I know this vest is his "lucky shirt", whenever he has an uncertain or important surgery, he always wears it. Tomorrow is his adopted daughter's surgery. Thinking about the fact that my niece is younger than her daughter, her illness is ten times worse than her daughter's, yet now she can only wait at the motel... I angrily threw the vest straight on his head: "Go wash it yourself, I don't have time." His face was cold, like he was scolding a child who didn't understand: "Ha Ninh, if you mess up again I will spank you." This sentence sounds very dark. I used to like it a lot, but I always felt it was pampering. But at this moment, I don't hear any pampering, I just feel like a stinky ant, a stinky ant that Luc Hoai Chau can arbitrarily despise. My eye sockets are red. Luc Hoai Chau has never had much patience with me.

Seeing me crying, he didn't comfort me, turned around and went straight to the bedroom and then to the bathroom. My heart ached and suffocated. But in the next second, my sister's call interrupted my thoughts. "Ning Ninh, go to the hotel right away, Du Du doesn't know if she got an infection on the train today, she has a very high fever." "I beg you, quickly bring Luc Hoai Chau over here to examine her." My heart felt like it was being squeezed, I didn't care that I was arguing with Luc Hoai Chau anymore. I rushed into the room like crazy, banging on the bathroom door. "Luc Hoai Chau, come out quickly, my niece has a fever, come with me to the hotel." "My sister said her fever is very high." When I said this, my voice choked up. The palm of his hand hit the door so hard that the door lock was bleeding. But Luc Hoai Chau still didn't pay attention to me. It wasn't until two minutes later that he nonchalantly opened the door. "What's the noise? Your niece has a fever so you should call 120, why should you call me?" "I won't go with you, tomorrow I have surgery all day, now I need to go to sleep." "If you don't sleep well, something goes wrong tomorrow, the person who dies under your surgical knife will not be one person, but countless lives.” “If you don't sleep well, tomorrow something goes wrong, and the person who dies under your scalpel will not be one life, but countless lives. And Luc Hoai Chau wiped his hair as he entered the room. Even lying on the bed, showing the appearance of getting ready to go to sleep. My mind was buzzing, every nerve felt like fireworks were exploding. Only now did I realize that in the two years I've loved this man 8 years older than me... He may have followed my fuss and tolerated my stubbornness, but he has NEVER changed any of his life habits for me.—2 When I ran to the hotel, my niece had a very high fever. I immediately called an ambulance, and my sister and I took her to the hospital. As soon as I arrived, my nephew was pushed straight into the emergency room. Looking through the glass door at my niece having to insert all kinds of straws, I sobbed and knelt down in front of my sister. My sister looked at me with tears in her eyes: "I don't blame you, blame our family Du Du for being miserable and suffering from this disease." "Your other boyfriend... do you still plan to continue dating?" I shook my head with tears in my eyes, but my sister no longer had the strength to respond, she just stared tearfully at the child in the glass room. Three days later, I was on duty with my sister at the hospital. And during these three days, Luc Hoai Chau never called me. I looked at his friend circle (Wechat). In addition to performing surgery on his "adopted daughter" that morning, he then took annual leave. In addition to personally staying at the child's bedside, he also took the child's mother - who was also his first love - to Hoa Da mountain to ask for a peace charm. I remember during Tet, I also used to be a babe and ask Luc Hoai Chau to take me to Hoa Da mountain to play. I said I wanted to ask for a study charm, praying for the graduate student exam to go smoothly. At that time, Luc Hoai Chau looked at me with extremely disgusted eyes: "At that time, I would rather stay at home and memorize exam books." "You are a materialist, never believe in these evil religions." At that time, I really believed his words. But now that I think back, I see that going to Hoa Da Mountain to ask for amulets or asking for a hospital bed... all have to be considered with whom, and for whom. On the fourth day, the niece was finally released from the ICU.