Chapter 1 — A Life of Unforgiveness

After returning from the prenatal check-up at the hospital, Tham Phuc's Bach Nguyet Quang and I were stuck in the elevator at the same time. When Tham Phuc ran over, because I was so scared, my white sweatpants were stained red with blood. “An An, are you okay?” Hearing his voice, my troubled heart finally calmed down. I held my seven-month pregnant belly, tried to suppress the pain and told him: "Tham Phuc, my stomach hurts a lot, the baby..." Hearing this, Tham Phuc quickly interrupted me: "Don't be afraid, I'm here." “Shen Fu.” Just as he was busy reassuring me, the girl next to me suddenly spoke up, her voice filled with surprise. I raised my head to look and saw her staring blankly at Tham Phuc, her eyes filled with tears and sparkling. Seeing the two of them looking at each other passionately, my heart couldn't help but sink. It was the first time I saw such complex emotions appear in Tham Phuc's eyes - joy, regret, love. He didn't even look at me, his eyes were only on her. Who is she? The intense pain came again, I gritted my teeth, weakly hugged my stomach and comforted the child in my belly, just hoping it could be a little more resilient. At this time, the girl hugged her chest, her face turned pale and said to Tham Phuc: "Shen Phuc, I'm so upset..." "But I'm really happy because I can meet you again, then I won't have any regrets when I die." She smiled, her expression extremely satisfied. “Tinh An.” Tham Phuc muttered her name. Maybe he remembered something, he didn't continue, but the pain in his eyes was so clear, so clear that even if I wanted to ignore it, I couldn't. Tinh An? Tran Tinh An. It turns out that she is Tham Phuc's long-lost first love. I once heard Tham Phuc's cousin say that he had a daughter he loved very much. Because she had a serious heart disease, on the day of their engagement, the girl left a letter and disappeared without a trace. After that, it took Tham Phuc six years to get out of that trauma. Later, he met me, proposed to me, married me — everything went so smoothly. But her sudden appearance made me realize that I was just that to him. Is this the destructive power of the "white moon light"? Because the exit was too narrow, rescue workers said they had to get the pregnant woman out first. "But there's also a heart patient in here. I'm worried she won't be able to stand it anymore." Tham Phuc looked at Tran Tinh An's pale face and couldn't help but speak up to remind him. Seeing that the rescue worker did not react, he quickly turned to ask me: "Thu An, are you okay? Can you hold on?" This "action" of Tham Phuc stunned everyone. Although he did not say it directly, everyone realized that his heart was inclined towards Tran Tinh An. The atmosphere immediately became awkward. Tran Tinh An bowed his head without saying anything, everyone turned to look at me. “I'm sorry, please save me first, my child is about to succumb.” My motherly instinct and desire to live make it impossible for me to pretend to be noble or humble at all. I don't want to die, nor do I want to be a Holy Mother. I'm just a mother trying to protect her child. Tham Phuc's eyebrows frowned tightly. Obviously, he is in a difficult position. “Shen Fu, it's okay, I won't live much longer anyway, the baby is more important.” Tran Tinh An smiled softly, full of self-mockery. Hearing that, Tham Phuc closed his eyes, his hoarse voice begged: "Please, save my wife first." When he opened his eyes to look at me, there was a flash of disappointment in his eyes. Then he turned to look at Tran Tinh An with a guilty expression, as if blaming himself for abandoning her. “An An, sorry.” Hearing that way of addressing me, I couldn't help but wonder if my ears heard correctly. Before, I really liked hearing Tham Phuc call me that, but now when I know that the person he always misses is "Tinh An", I just want to cry. Those quiet late nights, the person you call out with that loving voice... is it me or her? Tran Tinh An shook her head slightly, weakly smiling at him. "Than Phuc, don't worry, I feel much better. Your wife and the baby are more important." In Tham Phuc's eyes at this moment, compared to the gentle and understanding Tran Tinh An, I became a selfish person. Tran Tinh An curled up like a fragile porcelain doll, looking at it was truly heartbreaking. Tham Phuc's eyes were red, as if his lover was about to die. As soon as they brought me up, the medical staff immediately transferred me onto a stretcher to check the situation. Everyone was working properly, only Tham Phuc stood still and did not move, as if giving strength to Tran Tinh An. “Shen Fu.” I called him a few times before he suddenly woke up and turned his head. “Thu An, are you okay?” I originally intended to reassure him, but thinking about what had just happened, I changed my tone, held back tears and said: "My stomach hurts, Tham Phuc, I'm afraid something will happen to my child..." He sighed, hugging me absentmindedly: "Don't think too much, I won't let anything happen to you and your mother." He comforted me while looking towards the elevator. Seeing Tran Tinh An being taken out, Tham Phuc was about to go there, but unexpectedly I held his hand tightly. {Read full page at Van Ha Tuong page} “Tham Phuc, I will always be with you, right?” “Yes, I will stay with you.” He said such gentle words, but cruelly removed my hand and resolutely walked towards Tran Tinh An. “Tinh An, how are you?” He trembled and held her hand, loudly calling for a doctor to come check her out. Seeing this, Tran Tinh An finally couldn't hold back anymore, burst into tears and threw herself into Tham Phuc's arms, sobbing and saying: "Tham Phuc, I'm so scared... when I'm trapped in there, I'm afraid I won't be able to see you again..." I looked at the two of them hugging each other tightly, as if I could hear my heart tearing apart. It turns out, that way of addressing never belonged to me. “The fetal heart suddenly shows signs of abnormality, immediately take the pregnant woman to the hospital!” I let the rescue workers take me to the ambulance. Lying on the stretcher, I looked at the two of them still holding hands and saying affectionate words, gradually losing consciousness. In the hospital hallway, when I woke up, I heard the doctor say I had to have a cesarean section to catch my baby. I mustered all my strength, held the doctor's hand tightly, and said in a hoarse voice: "If something dangerous happens during the surgery... please save me first." Honey, I'm sorry. Mom... is not worthy to be my mother. The surgery took nearly eight hours to bring my mother and I back from the demon gate. When I woke up, the baby was born, a boy, weighing 1.8 kg, and is currently placed in an incubator for special care. Hearing the doorknob turn, I raised my head and saw Tham Phuc walking in, his face haggard and tired. “An An, the incision still hurts Are not?" Hearing the way he called me, I just felt disgusted. How can you be this thick-skinned? After once crossing the boundary between life and death, besides my child, I had nothing left to regret. I slowly raised my head, did not answer but asked back: "Who is she?" Hearing my harsh questioning tone, Tham Phuc's eyebrows furrowed and his voice turned cold: "Thu An, don't be too sensitive." “Shen Fu, I'm not stupid. When the incident happened, your eyes were full of worry and concern for her, I saw it clearly." I tried to hold back my tears and calmly condemned him: "When I needed you the most, you abandoned me and me for someone else." For the past six years, I still thought I was very happy, but now I realize that in this lifetime I will not be able to compare with Tran Tinh An. Seeing me crying, Tham Phuc couldn't help but regret and quickly promised: "An An, I'm sorry. From now on, you won't be like that anymore." "Tinh An has a serious heart condition, I really can't ignore it." I pushed him away: "Don't call me that, bad luck." Seeing that I couldn't push him, I couldn't bear it anymore, bowed my head and bit hard on his shoulder. I only heard him groan loudly, until the strong smell of blood spread to the tip of my nose. “Go out, I don't want to see you anymore.” Tham Phuc was afraid that I would be agitated and cause bleeding, so he could only leave. And from that day on, I never saw him appear again. Tham Phuc's parents are still far away and cannot return in time, so I have to take care of everything myself.