Chapter 3 — Goodbye The One I Love So Much

Through my fingers, I vaguely saw a pale orange light. The scent of flowers filled the air. In the middle of that sea of flowers, a man wearing a suit stood waiting. Tham Quan Nam. He wore a perfectly tailored suit. Relatives and friends were all dressed neatly. Even Potato was wearing a small suit and obediently sat next to him. I was stunned looking at everything before my eyes. Until Tham Quan Nam walked over and opened the car door, I still couldn't recover. He looked at me, smiled.

“Classmate Manh, it's time.”

This is our private password. Time to eat. It's time for school to end. Time to kiss. When it's time for the wedding, I'll go home. He carried me out of the car. Applause rang out non-stop. A man who has lived in life and death for many years, yet at this moment, he is so nervous that he stutters.

“Nien Niem, are you happy today?”

I choked up, speechless. Can only nod continuously. He smiled mischievously.

“Nien Niem, I have something extremely, extremely important that I need your help with.”

I looked at him.

“What?”

“Be my wife.”

“Marry me, I will make you lucky for the rest of your life.”

“Moreover, I also have a promotion that includes a pair, maybe three too!”

Very strange. In the story between me and Tham Quan Nam, many things happened very naturally. No preparation required. No need to assume. Just like I always knew, he would definitely marry me. Just like you know, I will definitely only marry you. After proposing, on the way home, he bought a lottery ticket. He told me:

“If you win, thirty million will be all yours.”

“What if I don't win?” I asked.

He smiled calmly.

“That means, marrying you has used up all my luck.”

I laughed and told him seriously:

“Up until now, I always thought I had no luck at all.”

“It turns out… I saved it all up, just to meet you.”

“Of course! I have accumulated 18 years of luck to meet you, I hope you will appreciate me.”

I tilted my head and kissed him lightly on the cheek, seriously saying:

“I will appreciate it.”

Dusk fell, I greedily looked at the red sky. The words from that year still ring in my ears, I'm just sad that you're no longer here. When I returned to the motel, the outside lights were on. Right at the entrance, there was a figure standing there. Red sparks from the cigarette floated in the air, and the faint smell of nicotine drifted in. I frowned at the person in front of me. Hearing the noise, he turned his head. At that moment, I saw a flash of confusion in his eyes. He quickly extinguished his cigarette and scratched the back of his neck. He looked like Tham Quan Nam every time I caught him smoking. I stood still, trying to ignore him, but when we passed each other, he suddenly said in a low voice:

“Manh Niem Nhat, I remember you.”

6

In a second, all the blood in my body seemed to rush to my brain. My Shen Guannan… is back? I turned my head stiffly, my shoulders and calves trembling slightly. Even my heart is shaking. The words "Quan Nam" were close to my lips, but when I faced his calm eyes, I suddenly stopped. Tham Quan Nam has never looked at me with such eyes. Every time he looks at me, he always smiles. In his eyes there is always a gentleness that envelops me. But the joy that had just flared up quickly turned into agony tightness in the heart. I bowed my head, not wanting him to see my eyes were red.

“Captain Vuong told me, but he didn't mention you.”

He slowly analyzed.

“I feel like you're very familiar, but not like an acquaintance between colleagues.”

“Every time I see you, I feel guilty and even a little afraid of you.”

“You know I'm allergic to mushrooms.”

“And the red string around your neck… is exactly like mine.”

That red string, we prayed together at Tien Nham pagoda. I wish you peace. He prayed that I would get what I wanted. On the chain are two small silver pieces, engraved with our initials. I forgot, even though Tham Quan Nam lost his memories, he was still a scout. Acumen is ingrained in his blood. He couldn't help but notice the unusually enthusiastic attitude of Captain Vuong and everyone. It was only a matter of sooner or later for him to guess his identity. But as for me... Is it that you haven't guessed it yet, or have you guessed it but don't dare to believe it? I slowly raised my head, meeting his searching eyes. But after just a second, his eyes turned to the ring on my hand.

“Diep Ninh said you were married… You… I…”

He put his hands in his pockets, but I knew his hands were definitely clenched into fists at this moment. His heart is definitely in turmoil. That's right, a man is immersed in the happiness of getting married, when suddenly a woman appears who may be related to his past. Who wouldn't be confused? My throat was dry, I couldn't make a sound. After a few tries, I slowly said:

“I am indeed married, but… it has nothing to do with you.”

At that moment, I saw him breathe a sigh of relief. In that moment, I felt like I was dying. I never thought there would be a day like this. The day Tham Quan Nam felt lucky again... Just because you and I are no longer related. I still remember clearly, in high school, he blushed when I caught him secretly looking at him. I also clearly remember his flustered appearance when I accepted to be his girlfriend. Remember his radiant smile as if he had just grasped the whole world. I have only seen that smile twice in my life.

“What about him?”

I looked at the person in front of me, tears could no longer be held back. He looked at me frantically and quickly apologized.

“Sorry, I…”

I bent down and raised my hand to stop him.

“Your parents love me and adopted me as their adopted daughter.”

“You and I don't have much of a relationship.”

“I just came here to watch you for them.”

“What about this red string…”

I forcefully pulled the rope around my neck. It fell to the ground.

“It's my parents who bless me.”

“By the way, just pray for me too.”

Tham Quan Nam quietly looked at me, saying nothing. But I didn't have the strength to continue acting anymore. I just hope these words are enough to give you peace of mind to get married. I don't know how I got back to my room. I thought I had very good control. But the moment I turned around, my tears felt like a dam bursting. They smudge all makeup. Looking at the pale, haggard face reflected in the mirror, I hugged my face and sat down in the corner of the bathroom, sobbing. Five years! How many times have I dreamed, hoping that one day Tham Quan Nam could return to me. Yet when he actually cums now... I have to push him away again. Why treat me like that? Why me? The pain in my heart rolled up and went straight to my stomach. A fishy taste rushed back up my throat.

"Niem Nhat, what's wrong with you? Quickly open the door!"

I put my hands on the wall, trying to stand up. Press the water flush button to quickly correct smudged makeup. Then, as if nothing happened, I opened the door and walked out.

"I'm fine, I just accidentally slipped."

Ms. Ly's eyes full of sadness made my heart ache.

“In front of me, you don't have to hold back.”