Chapter 8 — It Turns Out It's Still You

People beat me, curse at me, compared to his fortune and future, it's not worth mentioning at all. He's really stupid. "If you don't use your fists, then use your mouth? I have to beat them to shut them up, so I don't have to talk all day and annoy others. Du San San, now do you think I'm fighting and I'm embarrassing you?" “You are so unreasonable and arrogant!” I didn't expect it to turn out like this. “If you feel like you're losing face, don't mess with me anymore, I'm like that, I can't change it, I'll accept it if you like.” Having finished speaking, he turned and left. I stood there crying, not knowing what to do anymore. Crying for a while, I trudged home again, passing the intersection, I suddenly saw that person! It's the same guy who beat me in the bathroom last time and took pictures of me! I was so scared that my spine was cold, I panicked and ran like crazy towards the house. Halfway down the road, I bumped into someone. In that moment, my heart fluttered with a glimmer of hope. Luc Da came back to look for me? As a result, when he raised his head, it was Giang Thu again. "What's wrong?" He helped me stand. “I… I saw the group of people who beat me last time, they were following me… right behind me.” “Don't be afraid.” Giang Thu took me to a temporary shelter in the supermarket, "Wait for me a minute, I'll go take a look." A minute later, he came back. "There's no one over there. I heard someone fighting at the intersection. It's probably not aimed at you. Maybe they're meeting someone else to settle the matter." “Don't worry anymore.” Giang Thu took me home. When we got there, he saw there were still tears on my face, so he asked: "How are you and him...?" "No problem." I pouted, not wanting to say much. “Forget it, there are two weeks left until the university entrance exam.” He sighed. That night, I went back to my room and couldn't help but picked up the phone. I wanted to text him, saying that after he left I was in danger again. I want to say I'm very scared. But I was afraid that if he found out, he would run away and fight with people... I struggled all night, but in the end he didn't send me a single QQ message. He probably hates me. Thinking about this, I couldn't hold back my tears. 23 The next day at school, Giang Thu told me: "He went back to his old school, where his parents are, and is there preparing for the university entrance exam." I was very surprised. "How do you know? Do you have his QQ?" No matter how you think about it, Giang Thu and Luc Da are not the type of close friends who make friends on QQ. Furthermore, Luc Da didn't text me anything but instead told Giang Thu, this also sounds strange. “Well…” Giang Thu seemed hesitant, “Maybe he's shy, you two just argued.” I bit my lip, what he said sounded reasonable. But… this important thing, why didn't he tell me? I still feel a little sad in my heart. At night, I thought for a long time, and finally sent him an apology via QQ. I sent him a very clear message: I really thank him for standing up for me, and I always appreciate him. Yesterday, it was only because I was worried about him and afraid he would get hurt that I said such harsh words. I want to encourage him to do well in the exam, so that we can both get into college together. I edited and re-edited many times before finally sending it. I anxiously waited for him to answer. But the first day… the second day… the third day… I still didn't get a reply. My heart is heavy and I don't know who to confide in. He didn't text back, which made me confused. I started to get suspicious, not knowing why he ignored me like that. At first I proactively apologized. After that, I was afraid that he would get bored of me, so I pretended to send some lesson notes and added a few sentences by the way. Without exception, he did not answer. I am extremely sad, so sad that I can't breathe. Until

One day, he sent me a QQ message, a photo... the images were very hard to describe, I suddenly realized - His account had been hacked. I quickly called him to report this. The person who answered the phone was his father. “San San?” His voice was calm, "Ah, it's like this, the school over there is managing boarding, you're not allowed to bring phones, you can only use them after the university entrance exam." “Yes… I'm sorry, I'm bothering you.” I quickly hung up. After hanging up the phone, I suddenly realized - how did his dad know my name was San San? Thinking for a moment, I consoled myself: he must have saved my name in his contacts. It's true that studying makes me confused. Since then, I haven't texted him any more. Wait until after the exam and talk later. I focused all my energy on studying for university exams. 24 On the night of the university entrance exam, I planned to confess my love to Luc Da. But Giang Thu suddenly found me. "From now on, don't look for Luc Da anymore." He sighed. “Giang Thu, you are my brother now, please keep your temper.” I don't bother to pay attention. But he grabbed my hand and showed me the QQ message. LuY: "In the future, I'll ask you to take care of San San for me." Giang Thu: “What do you mean?” LuY: “What do you mean, I have a new girlfriend over here.” Giang Thu: "Don't you think you're miserable?" LuY: "There's no way. Wait until she finishes taking the exam and then tell her so she can focus on the exam. On my behalf, I wish her a bright future. Tell her not to contact me anymore, it's too troublesome." I can't continue reading any more... My mind is blank, my scalp is numb, my whole body is shaking. I cried as I rushed out of there. Running like a lost soul, not knowing where you are going, nor caring what dangers lie ahead. I even thought, what if I encounter bad guys? Is there anything that hurts me more than the words "Don't contact me anymore, it's so annoying" that he said? Are not. If I meet bad guys, will that enthusiastic guy still appear in my dreams, gently comfort me, "Don't be afraid, I'm here", and then defeat them? I passed through countless streets, the streets were filled with people, all of them were students who had just finished exams and were celebrating. They laughed, they shouted, they enjoyed the last echoes of their third year of high school... As for me, I was alone, lost and lost, walking through every street corner, faintly searching for his shadow. In the end, I couldn't walk anymore. I stopped, stopped in front of the wall next to the school. This was the wall he had climbed over countless times. Someone had put bricks underneath, and the paint on the wall was peeling off because it had been trampled on too much. And most of that credit is definitely Luc Da's. I reached out and touched that wall, imagining him every time he climbed out, wanting to find some trace he had left behind. But the wall is cold, not warm at all. The wall is still there, but he is gone. The enthusiastic boy who was once in my life has completely disappeared from my world. At that moment, I leaned my back against that wall and burst into tears. My third year of high school has ended, my youth has also ended. Everything that was once vibrant, naive, intense... has ended. 25 After this, I felt like I had died once. There is no longer any interest in everything around. What remains next are the days when machines predict scores, fill in wishes, and then wait for admission notification. I used to think that falling in love would be very difficult to overcome, the pain, the suffocation, the feeling of collapsing... But because of his lovelessness, as time gradually passed, it all became just gentle pain, not enough to take my life anymore. Even though friends sometimes mention it

The name is Luc Da, I can barely help but smile. Think carefully, what's wrong with him? He never promised me anything. I don't even have the right to be angry. Perhaps from beginning to end, he only considered me a friend, or at most just a little more than a friend. Like the lyrics in a song: "We've crossed the line of friendship, but we haven't reached love yet." I feel ridiculous about myself. The day before entering college, I logged into QQ to look up documents. Suddenly discovered he was online. My heart fluttered slightly. Thinking back, he and I have actually been apart for 3 months, but it feels like 3 years have passed. He's like someone very far away in my memory. Hesitating for a long time, like an old friend, I sent a greeting message: "Long time no see." “Yeah, long time no see.” But he still answered me. I was a bit surprised. I tried to control my emotions, tried to act as if I no longer liked him anymore, just talked about a few random things like normal friends. He still answered, but it was all short, one-word sentences. It seemed like he didn't want to talk to me at all. Conversations like that make me very sad. No matter how hard I tried to "read" every word, I couldn't find any trace that he ever liked me. I half-jokingly asked him: "Back then you said the person you liked was Y, who is she? Now... do you still like her?" He typed for a long time, but never responded. I started to get impatient.