Chapter 11 — Back to the Day of the Queen Mother's Marriage, This Time I Repented on the Spot, the Dowager was stunned

Every place carries the shadow of Tham Nghien Chi. But we don't turn back. When I stepped out of the palace gate, it was completely dark. Our palace's carriage is stopping outside the palace gate. Next to it, there was another one — the carriage of the Shen Palace. Tham Nghien Chi stood next to the carriage, wearing civilian clothes, not wearing official uniform. He watched me step out of the palace gate, his eyes instantly darkening.

“She has entered the palace.”

“The person she met was the Queen Mother.”

He took one step closer.

“What did she say to you?”

I look at him. The light from the palace lamp shone on his face, clearly illuminating the blue circles under his eyes. He hasn't slept well these past few days. I suddenly remembered that in my previous life, he never lost sleep because of me. Even though I was thrown into prison for a few days, he still lived in the Tham residence as usual, still went to court as usual, and still went to Lam Bich Hanh's place as usual. He had never had this kind of look in his eyes. The kind of eyes that look like someone has ripped out a piece of their heart.

“Sir Shen.”

I slowly opened my mouth.

“I asked the Queen Mother to allow me to leave the capital.”

His eyes immediately opened wide.

“I want to go to Jiangnan.”

“Because I don't want to stay here anymore.”

“Van Duong…” He reached out to pull my sleeve.

We take a step back. His hand stopped in mid-air.

“Sir Shen.”

I looked at him and said:

"I already know about your resignation from the position of Deputy Crown Prince."

"I already know about you coming to Tu Ninh Palace to beg for me. I believe what you said in your previous life was because Lam Bich Hanh drugged you."

I look at him.

“I won't stay.”

“I didn't leave because I wanted to punish you.”

“I am for myself.”

His face was now completely pale.

“Van Duong… give me a chance…”

“Sir Shen.”

I directly interrupted him.

“That thing called opportunity, I gave it to you in my previous life for three years.”

"In those three years, you didn't even bother to look at me."

“In this life, I won't give it anymore.”

His hand slowly dropped down. The light of the lantern flickered in his eyes, brightening a little but quickly dimming.

“So… can I go to Jiangnan to visit her?”

I don't answer. I pushed past him and got into my carriage. The moment the curtain fell, we saw him still standing in place. Immobility. Like a rock forgotten by people. The carriage began to roll. I sat in the car, burying my face in my palms. Not crying. It's a relief. I can finally truly breathe a sigh of relief. The day we left the capital, it rained a little. The pouring rain continued for a long time, falling on the roof of the carriage as if someone was gently tapping it. Father sent me to the city gate. In recent days, he has aged a lot and has a few more gray hairs on his head.

“Duong Nhi.”

"The manor is over there in Jiangnan. The administrator is your second uncle's old friend. He is trustworthy. Every month, the accounts will be sent back on time."

“Your mother also told me to bring a few more sets of oriental medicine for you, all placed in the chest behind.”

Father stopped slightly. The hand in the sleeve tightened and then slowly let go.

“Tang Nhi, if you want to come back… you can come back at any time.”

I smiled softly.

“I will return.”

“Wait until you want to come back yourself.”

Father's eyes turned red. Grandfather Raise your hand and gently pat my head. Just like when we were children. We boarded the carriage. Before the curtain came down, I even waved to my father. The carriage left the city gate. After walking about half a mile, the sound of horse hooves suddenly sounded behind. Very urgent. A horse came from behind and stopped right next to my carriage. The driver made a "huh" sound and then stopped the car. I lifted the car curtain. It's Bui Hoai. He sat on horseback, not wearing a cloak, his whole body was drenched by the rain.

“To Van Duong.”

He did not get off his horse. I didn't get out of the car either. The two of us looked at each other from the rain.

“Do you really want to go?”

"That day my mother came to her mansion... I couldn't stop her."

"No need."

I looked at him and said:

“Master, you don't owe me anything.”

He was silent for a moment.

“Can I ask you a question?”

“In your heart… have you ever had me?”

Rain fell on his eyelashes, he blinked once. I look at him. This is a very good man. Refreshing, straightforward, clear and transparent. If in my previous life the person I married was him... If I had really married him in my previous life, perhaps I would have lived in peace all my life, protected and safe for the rest of my life. Maybe I won't have to die. There will also be no chance to live again. But like that, I will probably forever just live like a normal wife, never thinking about what I want, what I like, what kind of person I want to become.