Chapter 31 — Late Love You

"I really like you, even if you don't give me a chance, give me a glimmer of hope. Tell me, how can I marry you again?"

He looked at me intently, with pleading and sincerity. I looked at him, and after a while I said: "I don't know, I just know that now the more you cling to me, the more I remember my sacrifices, and then the more I reject you. Maybe you understand what I mean." Pho Canh Tham slowly stood up: "Maybe you don't trust my feelings right away, but it's true that I don't have any feelings for Luu Kha Y. When I got married, I was just negligent because I misunderstood you, not that I really hated you. Can you trust me?" I didn't know what to say, and I couldn't help but be moved by his words. What he said is all true. No matter how many times I told myself, no matter how much I wanted to divorce and never see each other again, every time I looked into his eyes, I was always unconsciously drawn in. Reality has proven that my steadfastness these past few days is about to crumble. But I can't repeat the same mistakes. Can you believe it this time? Do I feel safe? I gently cupped his face with my hand. Pho Canh Tham grabbed my wrist, extremely excited to be favored.

“I asked you.” I looked at him quietly, "If what happened a few years ago was really my doing, would you still have these feelings for me? To you, would I still be indispensable?"

This is also something I always wonder about. After Pho Canh Tham learned the truth about the past, it was a misunderstanding, he began to regret it extremely, madly pursuing me. But if what happened in the past is proven to be my doing, what will you choose? In your heart, I'm still a money-hungry woman. You won't listen to my explanation, won't try to resolve the misunderstanding. But I don't need a Deputy Canh Tham who knows I'm that kind of person and still likes me. You don't understand me at all. To really like someone is to know what her dignity and personality are, and to know that she cannot do those vile and dirty tricks. When Pho Canh Tham heard that, he frowned. During the time he hesitated, I understood everything. I withdrew my hand, the vibration in my heart cooled.

“I know, go home.”

"I want to tell you, that doesn't matter to me. Even if it's true that you did it, it doesn't affect my feelings for you. On the contrary, I feel lucky because you defied any tricks to go to bed with me." Pho Canh Tham stared at me, his eyes filled with sincerity.

I know you are an extremely rational person, and when you say something out of your mouth, you absolutely do not lie. I have never delved deeply into where his feelings for me come from, and I am not the type of person who will say all my thoughts.

“I like you, in my eyes now there is only you, begging you, isn't that enough?” Your words are humble to the extreme.

“Not enough.” I looked up at him, "Do you know why I like you?"

Deputy Canh Tham shook his head.

"Because you saved me, protected me, because I was greedy for beauty and fell in love with you at first sight. This is inherently a very extreme feeling, after pouring it all on you, once I broke it out, I will never turn back again."

“Unless you can die for me. Of course, I don't mean to tell you to do that. I just want to say, no matter what, you won't be able to move me anymore. Get out.”

I bowed my head and didn't chase away the guests harshly, just avoided his eyes, not liking him just staring at me. Pho Canh Tham finally sighed and quietly left. I don't know what psychological changes he went through this time. I just know, now that you're gone, I can be completely at peace for a while. My heart is extremely complicated and also very tired. Go upstairs